Here we go.

OK. my first blog post. I've blogged on myspace for a while now and I just get tired of that place so, I thought I'd branch out. here goes nothin'.

Today is the last day of my hiatus from being a working mommy. I've been out of work since March 28Th 2008. I figured after my severance I'd be out of work 3 months, 4 months max. Never expected 6. This is the longest I have not worked since I was 16.
Tomorrow I have an orientation at Target. I worked at Target 8 years ago. It was my first retail job after years in food. I was a department manager, this time I will be a peon. I loved working there but the personal bullshit, gossip and favoritism turned me off from it. I didn't want to return to retail or food. It was a last resort after months of trying to get something in clerical/admin like the job I was laid off from. I just don't have enough experience to speak of. I was great at my job but that doesn't translate to paper.
Anyway, I just got back last night from a week in Orlando. Normally our vacations are hard on me what with being squeezed in between working full time. Work all day, come home and pack, drive, spend a week getting very little sleep entertaining the kids, drive, unpack, return to work.
That's usually how it goes. Not this time though. It was actually fun for me too.
But today, my last day of being a sahm, I haven't been able to focus on anything. I keep getting up from the desk and walking around. Not really wanting to do anything but not really wanting to sit at the computer all day doing nothing.
I'm just sad that it's over. I have to go back to dividing my time between work and the kids. Being perpetually tired and feeling like I never spend enough time with them. Oh, did I mention I will be working two jobs ? Yep, I won't be making enough at Target so I am also taking a job at a restaurant called Just Fresh doing prep. The Target job is 4am-12:30pm which is what I wanted. To work the majority of time while the kids are still asleep. I will be home before lunch. The Just Fresh job however, I don't know yet. I really don't want to work them back-to-back. I'm hoping they will let me work all day Saturday and Sunday. That way I will have my weekdays with the kids. I hope it works out. I really love spending time with them and don't want to go back to the days when I felt like part-time parent.
Back to my point, today has been strange. There are four bags sitting in my hallway waiting to be unpacked. Clean laundry that needs to be put away, cleaning to be done. I haven't done anything. I should be cleaning the house and preparing but I'm not. I'll be mad at myself later.
I sent the paper work to CPCC before we left and hoped that I would have some info when I got home. All I got though is another letter asking for paperwork. The deadline is October 15Th so I think I have to go downtown tomorrow. I really hope I get to talk to someone, I don't want to miss this chance.

OK, first post is officially over. Tell me how I did :)